| everything is alright |
[Jul. 16th, 2005|01:14 am] |
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| |  drained | ] |
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| | motion city soundtrack- when you're around | ] |
havent slept in about 31 hours, i have the worst insomnia ever imaginable
not too happy with things at the moment
not very content with my life
it isn't much fun being me
i just want warped to get here so i can be happy for a brief period of frickin time
it seems none of my friends really care how im doing, havent heard from anyone lately
kind of makes me wonder why i bother with them
my best friend hasnt called any all summer long
none of my other friends even think about calling me
my life sucks
i guess i was just dropped off their minds
but oh well
ill just be lonely and fucking hate my self
its not like thats a real change from normal
no one's going to read this so i dont even know why i write in it
probably for venting purposes
but yeah
when i go back to school soon i guess my friends will finally decide 'oh theres that girl we are supposed to be friends with, lets go pretend some more'
gosh shoot me now
x's and o's
steph depressed pants |
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[Jun. 27th, 2005|03:30 pm] |
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| | the academy is- down and out | ] |
Tell her you think shes AMAZING. Tell her why you think shes so amazing. Play with her hair. Talk to her in movie theatres. Snuggle, Hold her hand, and lightly KISS her. Hold her hand and walk. Hold her hand and run. Just hold her hand. Pick flowers from other peoples yards and give them to her. Tell her she looks BEAUTIFUL. Introduce her to your friends as "The most amazing girl I know''. Sit in the park and talk to her. Take her to the library, ice skating, playgrounds, and coffee shops. Tell her stupid jokes... Whatever it takes to make her laugh. Write poems about her. Walk with her, even if its just around the block. Throw pebbles at her window at night. SURPRISE HER. Do things that make her SMILE, make her LAUGH, and make her want to KISS you right on the face. BE SPONTANEOUS.. When she starts yelling at you, tell her you love her. Give her back rubs. Play football with her. Let her fall asleep in your arms. Call her even if its just to say hi. Call her back if she calls you. Jump on the bed with her. Whisper in her ear. Sing to her, no matter how bad you are. Carve your names into a tree. Get her mad, then KISS her. Send flowers and dorky notes that only you two understand. Teach her guitar. Lend her your cds. Make her cds of songs that remind you of her. Write her letters. If she asks you to go to a show with her, go, even if it means a 5 hour car trip. Go on a road trip even if theres no destination or you cant be gone long. Listen to her favorite songs. When shes sad or sick, hang out with her or stay on the phone with her, even if shes not saying anything. Buy her ice cream. Tickle her. Text message her when she least expects it. Let her take all the pictures of you SHE WANTS. Look into her eyes. Slow dance with her, even if the music is fast. Make her a romantic dinner for special days. Remember dates.. even ones like your first kiss or date and surprise her on the anniversary. Kiss her in the rain. Kiss her when she least expects it. When you fall in love with her, TELL HER.
how lovely this would be.
<3 x's and o's
steph |
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| kill, smile, cut it out for me this time.... |
[Jun. 16th, 2005|05:40 pm] |
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| |  blah | ] |
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| | taste of ink- the used | ] |
oh its been too long
lol
ive been so busy doing nothing lately...gosh
it takes up all my time
i can't wait for warped though
it's gonna be bad ass!
fall out boy and all the other bands i love
im gonna get so damn sunburnt though
well, not much more to write about
later
XO ♥
steph |
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| ill be your number one with a bullet.... |
[Jun. 2nd, 2005|12:05 am] |
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| | busy | ] |
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| | XO- fall out boy | ] |
so we meet again lovelies...
lmao
ive been so busy lately with cousin's birthdays and graduation parties...geez
i found out today that acceptance and anberlin are coming here in about two weeks
so im definitely going to have something to do...
summer has been pretty good so far, i have made a resolution to get outside more though and enjoy it
im tired of being such the hermit
today was a pretty dull day, not much going on
i watched 'pauly shore is dead'
that movie was pretty stupid...i didn't like it
on the other hand i watched 'the phantom of the opera' not too long ago and omg that is the greatest movie ever made.
i love that movie
...........lol i apologize for the complete randomness of the things i talk about
gosh....ill just shut up now
♥
steph |
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| they ran out with their hands waving in the air and singing.... |
[May. 20th, 2005|02:28 pm] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
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| | middle of nowhere- hot hot heat | ] |
my sister graduates today...fun stuff
i will have no one to talk to about music at school next year lmao
i will be a senior though
i got out for summer a couple of days ago and i have nothing to do with my time lol
im a boring person
i need to find some shows to go to or something
well today i have to go to graduation
ill miss all my senior friends...they were awesome
ill probably never see most of them again b/c they are going away to school
sadness....*sigh*
well gotta go
later
<|3
steph |
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| this is only a waste of our time.... |
[May. 1st, 2005|09:20 pm] |
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| |  content | ] |
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| | take cover- acceptance | ] |
got the infamous hair cut today
now it's a little fro compared to the big out-of-hand fiasco
i like it though
my mom did a good job ;)
lmao
no joke
my mom cuts my hair
well today was actually a pretty good day
i'm starting to get over this cold i've had
my ears are still clogged though
but today was fun
me rox and daddy cooked out
we made some steaks and chicken
but we had these burgers on there but they started to fall apart and stuff so my dad put this cajun stuff on them and cheese and he mashed them all together...it was really funny
it looked like hamburger helper was poured onto the grill
they said it was good though, i didn't think it looked very appetizing so i stayed away from it
but other then that i didn't really do anything of interest
oh except buy the new acceptance cd 'phantoms'
holy shit that is an awesome cd
i suggest that if you read this you should buy it...like right after you read this...so it's still fresh in your mind....really....do it......
lmao
<|3
steph |
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| if these words were fire.... |
[Apr. 30th, 2005|09:07 pm] |
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| |  confused | ] |
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| | i want to know your plans- say anything | ] |
so tonight is the big p-r-o-m.
i was going
but shit happens and that plan went down the drain
i hope my friends crash it or do something hilarious or embarrasing in honor of me not being there.
well i hope they have fun
even if it's without me
<|3
steph |
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| burn piano island burn... |
[Apr. 29th, 2005|08:56 pm] |
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| | drained | ] |
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| | this time is the last time- mae | ] |
finally went back to school today though not much to say
had to deal with all the 'where were you?'s and 'how are you feeling?'s.
oh but one funny thing that happened was at lunch
i was feeling really really sick so i didn't eat, i just got a sunny D.
so my friends alayna sylvia and marlayna come and sit by me b/c they got to eat lunch early.
so alayna is annoying the hell out of me the whole time and telling me to eat stuff and pushing all this food towards me
but she is sitting there 'preparing' her baked potatoe and showing us all the proper way to do it.
about this time im telling her that she is going to end up spitting it all over me if she doesn't quit laughing while she has it in her mouth.
right when i get done saying it she busts out laughing
well poor marlayna who was seated across from her recieves a full blow of chewed baked potatoe to the face.
and alayna looks at me and goes 'dammit steph! i knew you were going to make me laugh!'
so she has to go up and get napkins and help get all the potatoe off of marlayna, all the while she is sporting a huge chunk right in the front of her hair...oh it was awesome.
after that my day got a little better
and since i was down all this week and stuff my friend rick and i planned a big bowling extravaganza for next weekend, we are going to bowl our asses off!
we invited a ton of people so it should be very entertaining to say the least
well
that was one of the most eventful days i have had in a while
oh and i almost forgot about what my friend ricky said...it was hilarious
he was talking about getting his hair cut and stuff and i said he shouldn't
then he started talking about how he didn't gel his hair that morning and he goes
'i usually like it when its wet...and hard......and sticky...'
*i laughed so hard*
and i was standing out in the hall so it echoed
it was awesome
i guess you just had to be there
and have a perverted sense of humor
lmao
<|3
steph |
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| bleed for you.... |
[Apr. 28th, 2005|10:15 pm] |
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| | apathetic | ] |
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| | caring is creepy- the shins | ] |
sick again today
stayed home from school
really dreading going back for all the bitching out im going to get
but plans for next weekend to make things better
friends are all going bowling
should kick some ass
if not, oh well, i will enjoy myself
my dad was in a car accident last night
some dumbass didn't have tailights
i would kill that bastard if i knew who he was
but that was another day in the shitty life of steph
maybe i should make that the name of my journal?
nah...
well
bye
<|3
steph |
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| what it is to burn... |
[Apr. 27th, 2005|03:36 pm] |
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| | content | ] |
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| | alive with the glory of love- say anything | ] |
i went to the doctor today for my sickness
i have some type of allergy problem and a little bit of strep throat (if that's how you spell it)
so on the up-side i didn't have to go to school.
but yeeeeeeeeeeah i am bored so i thought i would write in here.
but i have something everyone who reads this should visit it is:
Acceptance Sessions @ AOL
it is awesome
but yeah im leaving now
bye
<|3
steph |
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| dead on arrival... |
[Apr. 26th, 2005|08:45 pm] |
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| | apathetic | ] |
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| | saturday- fall out boy | ] |
wow
i think this is the worst i have ever felt in my life
sinus pressure that makes my eyes water and i sneeze all day
it isn't fun
but about the whole rick thing yesterday:
he came to school and didn't get in trouble but 1st period since he is a smoker, he goes behind one of the buses at the greenhouse and gets caught.
and STILL doesn't get in trouble
all he had to do was clean some stuff up and empty the garbage cans.
gosh
i wish i could skip school and not get in any trouble.
and i decided today that im not going to my prom.
it would have sucked anyway
but now i am catching all the shit from it
all the bitching from people who wanted me to go
my life sucks pretty bad
well that's about all that happened today
now i have to live through tomorrow haha
<|3
steph |
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| i blew a fuse in my personality... |
[Apr. 25th, 2005|08:29 pm] |
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| | the innocent ones- hidden in plain view | ] |
omg today was horrible
my friend rick was supposed to "check out" and go get his tux for prom
so on the way to lunch instead of walking towards the office to check out how you're supposed to,
he heads toward the student parking lot
so i look at him like wtf?!
and he's like i'm leaving and he takes off
so he is in some serious shit if anyone finds out he just left.
gosh
and i had to cover for him in all the classes we had together like 'yeah his dad checked him out'
so if he gets in trouble i probably will for telling people he checked out.
so basically i think he screwed us both over
and i feel like crap so i really don't care what happens at this point.
having a stuffed up nose and a sore throat is the worst combo ever b/c you can't breathe out your nose and it hurts to breathe out of your mouth
so im basically in hell right now
lmao
<|3
steph |
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| chicago is so two years ago... |
[Apr. 24th, 2005|04:55 pm] |
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| |  irritated | ] |
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| | let go- frou frou | ] |
i didn't do anything this weekend
haha
i hope everyone had more fun than i did
and i have to go back to school tomorrow which makes it suck more
well
i'm leaving now
all the bitching around here is pissing me off
<|3
steph |
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| attention attention.... |
[Apr. 20th, 2005|03:50 am] |
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| | fucking ecstatic! | ] |
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| | the phrase that pays- the academy is... | ] |
so i just got back from bogart's in cinci
went and saw fall out boy, the academy is..., gym class heroes, and silverstein.
it was by far the most kick ass show i have ever been to.
it was hotter than hell in there though.
and it didn't help to have about 500 sweaty kids laying ontop of you either.
but it was well fucking worth it.
i was right on the barricade rail in front of the stage so i was like SWEET!
the academy is was so good i almost died.
it was so incredibly awesome.
and it goes without saying that fall out boy FUCKING OWNED!
well i am about to die of dehydration and i smell like...you don't even wanna know
so im gonna go take a shower and crash
<3
steph |
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| oh how today sucked.... |
[Apr. 19th, 2005|04:28 pm] |
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| |  sick | ] |
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| | box of sharp objects- the used | ] |
we started testing today and we had math
oh-my-gosh
i didn't think i was that horrible at math
but today that proved false
the bright side is that i get to see fall out boy, the academy is, silverstein, and gym class heroes tomorrow.
it is going to rule.
or as the teenies say 'iTs GoIn' Tah rawK mAh SaWks ofF!!!!111!'
lmao
well
not much else to write about right now
except that i feel like shit....
but that doesn't really need to be said
haha
oh well
<3
steph |
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| severed ties yield severed heads... |
[Apr. 18th, 2005|03:39 am] |
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| |  groggy | ] |
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| | a threnody for modern romance- it dies today | ] |
so this week we start the CATS tests...
SUCK-ASS tests, as i like to call them
so its really late and i have to get up and go to school and take that crap first thing in the morning...........ugh this is some screwed up shit.
well i guess i had better get off here and get some sleep so im not drooling on my papers tomorrow
<3
steph |
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| young and aspiring... |
[Apr. 17th, 2005|09:07 pm] |
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| |  energetic | ] |
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| | boy brushed red living in black and white- underoath | ] |
so this weekend went as so:
friday right after school headed to louisville for the senses fail show
a change of pace, senses fail, emanuel, and blame it on rio.
that show KICKED ASS!!!!
and you should be ashamed of yourself if you didn't go.
i dont care if you live far away....you still should have went
haha
so after that the next day
which is saturday
we have to put up a fence and clean out the garage
which was very tedious and sucked alot of balls
then today
which is sunday
we had to plant some flowers and make the house look all fancy schmancy for some reason.
so that was my weekend
if you dont like it....
dont read about it
lmao
<3
steph |
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| i blew a fuse in my personality... |
[Apr. 14th, 2005|05:43 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | sore | ] |
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| | love rhymes with hideous car wreck- the blood brothers | ] |
so today kind of sucked
we didn't really do anything in school today which is good
but i have had the worst headache of all time all day.
it is killing me
anyway....
i get to see senses fail, a change of pace, emmanuel, and the recieving end of sirens tomorrow!
HECK YES!
IT'S GOING TO KICK SO MUCH ASS!!!!!
but since i have no friends on here no one will ever see this :D
haha
<3
steph |
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